Proud to be a Wallflower
I don’t think I could ever describe how much The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky means to me, and how absolutely perfect it is.
“Perks” came to me at the right time in my life. In my sophomore year of high school, I was having a difficult time. I didn’t have any friends at school, I lived my life online, and I felt just plain sad. I was introduced to Perks by my favorite band, as one of the members loved this book. I wanted to read it since I love books, and asked for it for Christmas.
I read it that week after, and I’ve probably read it about 200 times since.
This book got me through high school. It got me through the times when I felt nothing was right. It was my comfort when I was upset. I keep it in my nightstand to make sure that it is always there just in case. When I feel “bad” like Charlie did, I read through my favorite parts, all underlined with a black pen. This book is just… there.
You see, this book came at a perfect time. Charlie gave me hope, that I could someday get better and move on from the bad times in life. Charlie taught me that it’s okay to be sad. Charlie didn’t have any friends to begin with either, and that’s how I was too. While I still don’t have that one “group”, I know they’re out there, waiting for me to come join them. I am a wallflower too, and I didn’t realize it until I read this book. I see things, I keep quiet about them, and I understand. Whenever I read this book, it reminds me of the bad times. Sometimes it’s almost like a trigger, when I recall the terrible moments of me crying, trying to figure out what am I going to do? But I know that I am still here, sitting right in front of this computer today. I got through it all. I am alive, I am free. Charlie had friends to help him get through those times. I had Perks.
This entire book leads up to Charlie’s revelation and him getting better. He goes down into this deep spiral of I don’t knows and I am bad, until something finally clicks in his head. For me, this was a certain person who gave me a reality check when I needed it the most. I am so grateful for him and I am so grateful for this book, for teaching me that life gets better. Even when you are at your worst, you will always find a way back. And I know that now, so thank you Charlie.
There is this one line on the last page of the book, which may very well be my favorite line of the entire book. “Things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.” Even when I go back to those days and I feel terrible and I need comforting, I know that I will be happy again soon. Things are better. Life goes back and forth a lot, from good to bad, to bad to good, and it is okay. I am happier than I used to be, and even when I’m not, I will have a smile on my face soon enough.
Thank you Charlie. Thank you Stephen Chbosky. Thank you for this amazing book that gives me the biggest amount of hope. Thank you for finally making a movie at the right time I needed it, even if it still makes me cry like a baby. Thank you for teaching me how to get through life.